Preparing for the big day

So, I decided not to go to sleep tonight. That's going to make airports interesting tomorrow. Haha. I'll sleep when I'm dead!
Further more, its my last few hours in Colorado and, even more, my last few hours in the States. Everything is packed, I hope. I looked all over and checked every list and cant seem to find anything I might be missing.
Honestly, though, I don't feel like it's really gonna happen. I feel like I'm going to go to bed and get up tomorrow and go run around town like usual. When I actually think about the fact that I'm leaving the country I get a million mixed emotions. I'm sad, because I'm leaving my friends and loved ones. I'm anxious, because I really don't know what to expect. But mostly, I'm excited. I have this cool feeling like God has something huge in store and he's anxiously waiting to show me what it is. Maybe it's just my own projection of God, but I feel like he's more excited about this than I am. I am excited. It's a new adventure, which I need haha. And I honestly believe that it is God's will for me. I hate saying goodbye and I don't like leaving my friends. Yet, somehow, I know it's going to be okay. God is going to take care of me and I'll see them in 3 and a half months. Thailand beckons and school will be starting and I really think I'm going to enjoy it. God and I are gonna do this together. He's never failed me before!
So, yeah. I guess this is all my random thoughts at almost 4AM when I hafta leave for the airport in like an hour and a half.